The New Dream..

When it comes down to it, the things I see as being essential for me to achieve in my life are reasonably little.

First and foremost, a family.

Secondly, a home I can really call my own.

Thirdly, a job I enjoy. 

Up until recently, I intended to attempt to become part of an industry that would have made my first 2 life goals pretty difficult to achieve.

I mean, lets face it; other than the Julie Andrews standard of actresses, how many are out there that can actually say they're financially stable?

I'll tell you..

Not many.

But anyway;

After soul searching and deliberating, worrying and panicking, I've finally decided the actual career that I want to have, and the prospect of starting it as soon as I can is really exciting to me. 

It feels like such an obvious choice, that I kind of feel a bit stupid for not deciding on it sooner. If I had, I could actually be doing something really proactive towards it right now..

I want to be a teacher.

I want to help people learn.

I want to encourage them to express how talented they are.

I want to make sure they know that they can be anything. Do anything.

I want to be one of the ones your kid'll come home raving about and won't forget, even when they've left school.

I want to make sure they know that it's ok to be a bit worried about growing up, because it's a fricking scary thing to do.

I want to be the kind of teacher that does more than just teach.

That's the new dream.

Oh The Things We Do..

We talk about things all the time.

You and me..

Just like everyone does.

All the things we want to do, that we wish would happen, where we want to go..

Who we want to be.

What we want to grow into.

We have to make all these decisions that we don't really want to make. All these things we have to think about, and all the stuff we have to deal with.

We have problems to sort out, friendships to maintain, and lives to lead.

And all I really want to do is..

Leave.

Just you and me.

Just leave.

Even if it's just for a little while.

I want you to know, I'd do anything to make you smile.

To see your face light up, and the look in your eyes.

To know that I truly made you as happy as you've made me.

I've given up caring if it sounds crazy, and I've given up thinking about what other people think..

I love you.

I want to be with you.

For always.

<3

You Give A Little Love..

I am a big supporter of all things acoustic-musicy, and so when I discovered this amazingly talented girl, I immediately became obsessed.

Literally.

Obsessed.

She got famous through YouTube (like Bieber, only way better) And yesterday, she did one of the most amazing covers I've heard for a while, and I thought it deserved some serious love. It wasn't a song I'd ever imagined her to cover, but I'm so glad she did! I think it's fabulous!

You can watch the video I'm talking about here, and I'd advise you to listen to more, especially the one's she's written herself. They're incredible.

She recently did a tour, and I was really annoyed that she didn't come anywhere near here, because I would have really loved to go and see her play.

She genuinely seems really lovely, and I think she underestimates just how good she is, which makes her even better.

Anyway,

Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,

I give you,

Gabrielle Aplin.

Enjoy.

(And let me know what you think!)

<3

The 'I've Done' List..

I was thinking yesterday, just how awful I've been when it comes to doing posts recently.

I've barely said anything, and practically disappeared from the blogging airwaves for quite a considerable amount of time.

It's just that, these past few months have been so busy that I've hardly had time to breath!

Since my last post, I have:

- Been in a school production of 'Annie'

It seemed adorable when we first started it, but quickly lost all it's charm.

- Finished my Performance A2

My exam was on Friday and went really well, but for about a month I was eating, sleeping and breathing the 2 pieces we had to create, learn, practice and 'enjoy'..

- Been to America

It was the best school trip I've ever been on, and when I'm on the right computer I'll put up some of the photos.. But it really was incredible. Jealous?

- Panicked quite a bit

I have 2 psychology exams coming up, both of which I'm dreading, and one of which is on my 18th birthday. I was not happy to discover that.

- Spent a lot of time with my boyfriend

I'm not going to lie. He makes me very happy. And I love him.

- Reached 'that point' at school

I'm at the stage where I can't wait to leave. The prospect of coming in every day makes me kind of angry, and I'm really hating my subjects. I just can't wait to be finished.

- Worked something out

I genuinely don't care about a lot of the things I used to care about. What people think, what I look like, if people agree with what I say.. If they don't like it, sod it. It doesn't affect me.

- Made plans

I'm doing so much once school's out.. Stainsby festival, Whitby folk week, going to Devon with the Mr, going camping with friends, and 'helped' plan the big party in a few months time.. It's going to be one hell of a summer.

I finish school in 2 weeks for exam leave, and once they're done, I get to live my life, at least a little bit.

I can't wait!

<3

Who needs a mature birthday party when you could dress up as:

Superwoman

The Queen of Hearts

Or a Magical Fairy?

Who needs to worry about anything, when you have friends like these?

I love my girls..

And when you have a serious lightweight for a boyfriend?

Who puts up with your crazy ass hair?!

And dresses as Woody from Toy Story?

I loved this night.

Here's to many more.

<3

Dear Old Acquaintance..

This Christmas was strange for me..

For the first time, I didn't feel massively festive..

There wasn't the build up of seeing decorations gradually appearing, I missed the lights being turned on in town, and I found thinking of what I wanted present-wise genuinely quite difficult..

I had a really nice Christmas with my family.

We travelled down to the Isle of Wight on Christmas Eve, and came home on the 28th (feeling very full). I got lovely presents, but the best thing really was just spending time with people I cared about, and hadn't seen for ages.. I'd really missed them.

But New Year?

New Year was a totally different story.

I will admit:

Me and my friends at school had been planning what we wanted to do for a few weeks..

With significant input from my mum, obviously..

We settled on it being:

-Back tie

- Casino night

-With roulette

- And plenty of food

And it was an absolutely brilliant night.

We looked fancy..

We gambled with fake money.. For chocolate.

Everyone got on really well..

*cough* Even if they did cheat *cough*

We acted a little crazy..

But it was all very lovely..

Then we had a few impressive fireworks to celebrate it being midnight..

And looked good while we watched them..

Then we crashed out in my front room and chatted the night away..

I had an amazing night, with some really wonderful people..

That's the basic run down of my New Year..

How was yours?

<3

My Up Day..

The snow of yesterday kept coming.. It resulted in a day off school.

A snow day.

In England.

In November.

This is the view that I woke up to today. Minus my friend.

My garden became a playground for the day..

It was seriously deep..

By lunch it was about 8 inches deep..

It' now easily twice that..

We were wrapped up as warm as we could get..

My friend Deeds was in my mums gloves so that her hands didn't freeze..

And then we became childish.. As is the custom in snow..

We just couldn't help ourselves..

We made snow boobs.

I had a really wonderful day..

I could forget everything I thought I was worrying about.

I could laugh and not feel guilty about the work I hadn't done..

I mean sure, I feel a bit guilty now, but school's shut tomorrow, so it doesn't matter too much..

It was really nice..

To relax and have a laugh with some of the people I care about..

<3